So this is what 4am looks like.

 

I was awake at 4am this morning and wide awake for about an hour after that. (Mind you, this is totally bizarre because never in my life have I ever had issues sleeping.)  I kept thinking about how wonderfully naked this particular line of trees looked the other day, out our kitchen window. Even though they’re brilliant in the summer, they sure don’t lose any of their awe-inspiring features in the winter. And now it’s snowing! And now they look even more solid, barer and open to arms. It was so cold this morning I thought I had lost my nose on the short walk to my car. I should write an ode to winter…one of my few true loves.

 

My thoughts drifted from the trees to a distant family member who has been having sudden and severe health issues. The scariest part is, they don’t have a certain diagnosis. I’ve never met him before but it’s such a terrifying situation, to be suddenly hospitalized, to the point of losing his life, and not knowing why. So I prayed for him.

 

Next, my hands felt their way to my tummy to play with baby. We had a nice little talk about him/her making it easy on me at birth, coming out quickly and with ease. I’m not sure he’ll/she’ll remember that 5 months, but I’m keeping my fingers crossed. J

 

The next thing I remember had something to do with being in my grandma’s house confronting ghosts in the cupboards and smelling the clothes still hanging in her closet. I’m guessing I finally fell asleep. If not, I don’t ever remember being cold on the drive there.

 

In paintbrush news, the Cancun panorama is finally complete. I had to redo the buildings a couple of times and the sky was being particularly stubborn, but I’m satisfied with the result. I hope to have it posted soon along with an alternate blog entry with pictures of each stage of the process for this particular piece.  It’ll look like a story without any parallel structure.

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One Comment on "So this is what 4am looks like."

  1. Jesse Kepka
    Honor Kepka
    14/12/2008 at 8:40 am Permalink

    You have a way with words. You can definitely turn a phrase. I am looking forward to viewing your latest painting. Please tell baby that all the granparents are excited about and already in love with him/her.

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